Star Lyn

I Met An Old Friend Today



Posted: Monday, April 14, 2008

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I met an old friend today. She had been away for along time. I had just about forgot her all together. It had been so long since I had thought about her, I almost didn't recognize her. I had forgotten the excitement I felt when she was around. The plans, details and the hours, days, weeks and months that we spent creating, were remembered. I laughed, cried, wondered, pondered and fretted about her for so long.

As I look back now, I can see how she slipped away. First it was a boy friend, then husband. I went to college and there just wasn't time for us anymore. I told myself we would get together real soon, as soon as I found the time. I made excuse after excuse with heartfelt apologies, not only to her, but to myself as well. "I won't let us drift apart." I said with full meaning and determination. I had invested so much time and so much of me in this relationship. I didn't feel complete without her by my side.

As the years rolled by, I thought about her less and less. The family filled my days, as well as work, bills, little league, causes and the like. I rationalized that it was natural to forget about her, talking myself into believing it wouldn't have worked anyway. Using self doubts, excuses, circumstances, and life in general to while away my loss.

Now that I am older and have the pressures of the world at bay, I have again met my old friend. She came to me out of the blue, when I wasn't expecting her. All of a sudden, there she was, with a familiarity that I found comforting. Oh sure, a few details were amiss, but all and all it was her.

"Who is she?" you ask. She is the dream I had in my youth. The plan I developed of who I would become. She held the goals I depended on achieving. You see, this friend is really the me that I left behind – I thought. I had become her after all. She wasn't really gone; she was growing, changing, learning and living. She was there all along, just like old friends usually are.

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Top-level comments on this article: (2 total)
» left by James P Krehbiel
 3 years 300 days ago.
125 fans.
Star, Excellent article. Just curious, how has this insight or discovery impacted your life? Thanks again.
» left by 3 years 299 days ago.
Dear James, First of all, thank you for your kind comment. To answer your question, actually, it was a huge relief and comfort to know that the ideals of my youth set in motion a varied and interesting chain of events, which like the ebb and flow of the tide, brought mountains of creative waves, building and tearing the fabric of the tapestry of which I have become. It was reassuring to know that I had become a masterpiece of my own making. The good, the bad and the ugly... but me nonetheless. Thanks again, Star
» left by Anonymous
 3 years 299 days ago.
It's more difficult sometimes when your dreams DO COME true. Now you have to look for new ones; different tasks to accomplish. At least when your dreams DON'T come true, you still have something to look forward to. #3 fan, Joe C. C. (reverse destiny)
» left by 3 years 299 days ago.
Joe, Thank you for taking the time to read and comment on my article. Yes, you are correct in your statement, as usual. But I must add that the job of looking for and having new dreams can be very rewarding. And after all, is it not the journey that is the real adventure, not the destination? Your #1 fan, Star
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